This evening I want to share with you just a little post about time.
I’ve often complained that I just don’t have the time to do what I want to do. And this is sometimes true. But I’ve found that more often than not I have plenty of time but, like the future, it’s not evenly distributed.
This evening, for instance, I was watching a show on TV with my wife. But I was restless. Distracted. If you recall in a prior post I argued that distraction is conflict. What was the conflict here? What was causing my distracted state?
As it turns out, on examining my feelings I realised that I was only watching the show to be polite. I didn’t really care for it and I had things I wanted to do. I wanted to listen to some music, update my journal, read my book.
I’d allocated time in the wrong place. My conflict was that I knew there were things I wanted to do, that my better self would wish that I would do, even in my state of evening tiredness. So I listened to that better self, made my excuses and sauntered off to the conservatory where I relaxed, noticing the distracted state of conflict devolve, and did what I really wanted to do.
Restlessness, distraction; these things can be excellent clues if we know how to read them.
So if you find yourself without the time to do what you want to do, don’t be frustrated. And if you find yourself restless, don’t see it as a personal failing. It isn’t. Just listen to yourself without judgement and without expectations. The answers are all there.